Trusting the Path

Dec 30, 2024
Like most of you I have been reflecting on the last year. It feels like every year is a tough one when you look back on it! This year was filled with many lessons and changes that often felt forced, sometimes because they were initially avoided!! The universe has a way of steering us when we are trusting the manifestation but not trusting the moves we have to make to attract it.

 

My year was full of lessons regarding letting go, definitely setting me up for a year of surrender! I faced repeated challenges that have all but broken me in the past, but this time around I was given another level of support that helped me to worry a little less and trust a little more. I am so grateful for those that shielded me from the harshness of what was being thrown at me and allowed me to authentically face the rest.
 
I stood in my power, even when I knew I wouldn’t like the physical outcome of a situation, because I knew that by facing it I could draw a line under it for good. And it was painful, but rainbows only come with rain, and then the storm quiets and the sun comes out.
 
Don’t get me wrong, there were many good times too. Opportunities to spend quality time with family and friends, times to laugh and enjoy big things and little things. So many proud moments and moments filled with gratitude for all the people that I love and that love me who are a part of my best memories.
 
And as I think about my people and the importance of the time I spend with them, I realize that I don’t put enough value on the time I spend alone. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn’t, like it’s a weakness because I don’t want to conform to societal pressure to be more sociable. I am lucky to have time to myself. I crave it and may cancel plans because I feel the need to withdraw. It is time to see this as a strength and not a weakness; to celebrate the time alone knowing that these are the moments when growth occurs, as long as you don’t avoid them.
 
I read a quote by @michellcclark on Instagram, it said “Trust the unfolding of your life. Many phases of your life will feel disorienting, but when the dust settles, you’ll realize that you weren’t torn to pieces - you were expanding".
 
I feel that so hard. Of course changes are disorienting if their purpose is to level you up - they make you think about things you were avoiding, release things you were holding on to, go places you were afraid to go. That’s what is needed to move from stagnant to a life bigger and fuller and more expansive.
 
Is it hard to trust because it’s hard to believe in the good that is to come or because we believe in it but don’t yet believe we deserve it? I feel like some really BIG changes are coming in 2025, for all of us, and I am SO excited for them. I feel ready for change, I’m done with lessons, but am I ready to accept whatever changes may come, knowing that they will be for me? I don’t know, are we ever truly ready?
 
So as I continue to get hit by the bus of change (because I’m not fooling anyone if I think it’s not going to keep happening!), I will continue to feel the pain, feel the fear, feel whatever emotions it brings up, because that’s the most important thing I’ve learned - when it comes to healing, lean in. You don’t need to embrace or enjoy any of it, just lean in, let it consume you for as long as you need to. Don’t push it down, allow it to be everything if you have to fro as long as that has to be, because when you do, it will leave and you will be changed for the better ❤